it seems like I only write when people piss me off irritate me, or I have a revelation it never occurs to me that I should write when I’m happy. Today I am borderline happy and I have a revelation so I am still seeing the same guy kind of but I’m single still, and on Thursday he texts me asking if it is okay for him to have another girl suck his dick, me being the girl that I am I lied and said no. Of course it bothered me because here I am thinking that I love this guy and he loves me and that he cares for me. Of course it occurs to me that we are not dating. I’m seeing a pattern of guys enjoying having a girl that is not their girl they enjoy a girl being readily available to them but not ready to take on being in a relationship with them, which irritated me at first. So on Friday night I was drinking with my friends and I admit I was a little tipsy and I decided to text him to let him know that it angered me that he wanted another girl to suck his dick, and this is what he told me. He told me we’re together but we are not together, and that he didn’t intend to hurt my feelings. First of all I was a little irritated with this fact yes I am aware that I’m not his girlfriend but his friend who is a girl who he occasionally has sex with, and today which is Sunday I came to the realization that if guys are going to do this shit and play with girls minds about this whole are we or aren’t we. Why the fuck can’t girls do the same shit? I figured the summer is coming up, I am ready to meet a couple new guys and explore my options, guys do the shit all the time. I’m not in a relationship, so why should I feel the need to be trapped when I am able to date our people without being defined as a “hoe.” Niggas been doing the shit for years, so I feel like I might as well do the same shit, I mean who’s to say that the guy I’m “dating” right now may or may not be my boyfriend in my future but in the meantime why not have fun and meet new guys, different guys. I don’t want to be known as the girl who wasted her time with someone who did not love her or even appreciate her. So this is my revelation, I am excited to see how this will all play out. I can’t wait to update you all on my many new adventures that I will have!
She makes the ugliest faces when she cries…
oh my god, the hijabi one…so accurate.
Usually these things are dumb, but this one is really important.
this is sad, it really is.